I always think where I lack ? I spent days and months thinking what am I doing wrong. Why am I stuck in different situations . Why my heart is not at ease. Why I cry. Why I feel alone and depressed. Why I can’t have satisfied family relationships. What is the thing that is teasing me. What is tangling my thoughts. Why am I like this? Although I pray 5 times a day and read Quran. Why ? Then one night I read an ayah .
” And when My servants ask you, [O Muhammad], concerning Me – indeed I am near. I respond to the invocation of the supplicant when he calls upon Me. So let them respond to Me [by obedience] and believe in Me that they may be [rightly] guided.”
You know what touched my soul ? “Indeed I am near ” . What I lack is believe. What I lack is faith. What I lack was trust in Allah’s decisions. I was afraid to tackle my fears because I didn’t realize He is near. He listens. He watches. He guides. He gives. He forgives. He forgets my sins only in return of one tear of regret. He is the One and Only Al Rahim. He loves me. He’ll heal me. He’ll stand by me when I’ll have no one. He’ll save me . Because He loves me. That is what I never realized. Faith is the key to satisfaction and purification of my sick soul. Quran heals you only when you believe each word and each ayah . Start believing Allah and every wrong will end .